Lack of bloat photo coming soon…

How far along? 8 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: - 2. Eating is not working so well lately.
Maternity clothes? Still only wearing lounge pants. The mat shirt looked ridiculous on me.
Stretch marks? No.
Sleep: Getting lame. I wake up a lot, and last week I officially began getting up to pee in the middle of the night.
Best moment this week: Seeing the little smudge on the screen! (smudge is the new nickname, thanks to my auntie Mitzi)
Movement: Nope.
Food cravings: None, really. I’ve been feeling pretty sick lately, so nothing sounds good.
Gender: I’m still wishing girl but thinking boy.
Labor Signs: Nada.
Belly Button in or out? Innie.
What I miss: I still miss feeling normal. This week has been rough.
What I am looking forward to: Hospital tour on Saturday.
Weekly Wisdom: None, really. I wish I had some regarding a miracle cure for feeling shitty.
Milestones: Seeing and hearing the heartbeat!

1.) Fuck nausea. I’ve had it with this already. I know that I am supremely lucky to not actually be vomiting, but damn, this sucks.

The SeaBands are not doing the trick anymore. So, I am trying Meclizine, which is basically Dramamine. I do feel slightly better, and feel if I took one more (which is fine since you can take up to two in a day) I’d be feeling stellar – but they cause drowsiness. I am tired already due to growing another human. Now I’m a little more tired due to a sleepy medication. To take one more would be like saying “It’s totally cool to pass out at your computer at work. Just rest your head on the spacebar and all will be well.” Zzzzzz…

2.) We’ve suddenly scheduled a trip back home to see my grandmother this weekend. If you read my other blog, you’d know she’s not doing well. She’s been in the hospital since Monday, due to nausea and pain associated with her cancer. My aunt and uncle and a cousin are all flying home to be with her this weekend. It just seems like the right thing to do. What sucks is that I know she knows what this means. We just went through these same motions less than a year ago with my aunt. When everyone rushes home, it’s not good.

On Monday I gave my mom the go-ahead to tell my grandma the good news about the baby. I was so worried about her passing before I could tell her – I just wanted her to know. I plan on bringing her a picture of her great-grandbaby when I come home. Maybe it’ll help her pull through.

3.) The super sensitive sniffer is now in full force. I can smell BO in my workroom suddenly. This guy never stunk before, and now…VOMIT CITY.

4.) The BO smell and my nausea are causing me to forget that our first u/s is tomorrow! I need to focus on that.

I’ve got a knack for being in the lady toilet when they call me in the waiting room. The two times I’ve gone to this clinic and left a urine sample they’ve called me mid-stream. Perfect timing.

In any case, my first official appointment went well. The nurse was really nice, and we went through all the questions, blood work and bs-ing you can do. I officially chose MIDWIFE, and set up my next appointment (after my u/s on Thursday) for April 10th, where we’ll get to hear the baby’s heartbeat.

I’ll get results in the mail from this appointment, and if anything is weird, they’ll call to let me know.

Now, bring on Thursday!!!

Again with the bloat. And this was after a deuce. Insane.

How far along? 7 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: According to the doc yesterday, +1.
Maternity clothes? They arrived! I’m only wearing the maternity lounge pants from Target now though.
Stretch marks? No.
Sleep: Still okay. Boobs make it kind of hard to get comfortable. And stomach doesn’t usually like it when I shift from one side to the other. Back sleeping has ruled.
Best moment this week: Getting the all clear from the yeast infection!
Movement: Nope.
Food cravings: Chinese food (fried rice, mostly), bananas.
Gender: I’m still wishing girl but thinking boy.
Labor Signs: Nada.
Belly Button in or out? Innie.
What I miss: Feeling normal. Hot, hot baths.
What I am looking forward to: Thursday! First ultrasound!!
Weekly Wisdom: People are none the wiser with seltzer and a lemon at the bars.
Milestones: Deciding on going Midwife!

Well, I had my follow up appointment this morning regarding the land of yeast – and I passed with flying colors!

The Midwife I had today was John. I will admit, I was a little leery about having a man take a gander at my junk. It’s been years since I had a male OB. However, I loved him. He was so kind and thorough – and just an overall wonderful person! I’m now convinced that I want to go the route of a midwife and not an OB.

Here’s the TMI part. You may choose to not read if you don’t want to read about cervixes and endometrial cells. Skip down to the stars below if you’re grossed out.

He basically said that I have a lot more endometrial cells on the outer edge of my cervix. Those cells are flimsier and tend to bleed more easily. So, he said he assumes that all it took was that applicator hitting it and blammo – lots of spotting. He also said that explains why I tend to spot after sex. And the icing on the cake – he said my cervix is tilted. I guess most people’s sit at about 10 o clock when lying down, but mine is more like 12 o clock. But he did the recheck and all my yeast cells are gone. He said my pH is a little less acidic than they’d like, so I may be prone to more infections in the future, but for now everything is good.

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So, needless to say I learned more from him in 15 minutes than I have in the past 15 years about my body.

I also chatted with him about spilling the beans. We discussed my LMP vs my real due date, and “to get the date correct” he suggested an ultrasound. So, Thursday morning we can actually see the little bee! SO EXCITED. After I get confirmation at that appointment, we’re going to start telling people. He warned that you’re really not fully in the clear until about 10-12 weeks, but I’m willing to take the chance. (He said that I’m definitely on the lower end of the risk scale for miscarriage.)

So, that’s that! My appointment tomorrow is all about blood work and peeing in cups and talking about histories.

I cannot wait until Thursday!

We’re about to go out for a friend’s birthday. Only my second “night on the town” since the BFP. I’m tired, bloated, and totally fine with staying home. But, alas, we shall go out. I don’t know how long I’ll last, but I’m giving it my all.

“I’ll have a seltzer in a highball with a lemon, please. Hold the vodka.”

No spotting today. Seems the culprit may have indeed been the dreaded treatment. We’ll see what tomorrow holds.

Seabands are still holding strong.

All seems well in the land of baby bee.

…what the deal is with my spotting.

Well, here I am a week after starting the treatment (which I am now finished with) and I’m still spotting. No cramping, but it’s a little concerning.

The nurse I spoke to today seemed a little concerned as well and agreed I needed some peace of mind. She wanted me to take the weekend to see if the spotting cleared on it’s own now that the treatment is finished.

So, Monday morning I’m going in to have them check my cervix and see if I possibly have a bacterial infection or if something else is going on. If there’s no infection present, she said I may get an ultrasound to check everything out, make sure there’s no other issues.