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Today is the beginning of the end…

Posted 01 Feb 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category Abigail, baby business, motherhood

…of my maternity leave.

Tomorrow, I go back to work.

Abby has been extra smiley today, which helps and hurts at the same time. She even gave me her first REAL GIGGLE! I tried so hard to get her to do it again but no. She’s also mastering squishing things between her fists to “pick them up.”

How do I feel about going back to the land of adult conversation? I’m actually really excited to go back. I can’t wait to get my mushy brain back to working order, to wear real clothes and makeup everyday. To eat and pee and use a computer* without interruption.

But not being able to pick up and snuggle my little girl whenever I want breaks my heart. I know she’s going to start doing a lot more in the coming weeks and I can’t even think about missing her firsts.

The hubs and I are in a position with his job where, if I REALLY REALLY wanted to, I could stay home. But when it really comes down to it…I don’t want to. I like my job. I like my career. I like making my own money.  I am so thankful that between my job and his, we really only need 3 days of childcare, and his parents are able to take care of her for those three days. It’s a really hard decision, but I know it’s the best.

Next up – the gallbladder. The u/s came back normal, lab tests normal. Next the doc wants me to do what’s called a HIDA scan to see if maybe my gallbladder just isn’t working. Needless to say, Vincent isn’t coming out any time soon.

And the hair loss. I’m going to take a few deep breaths and write the current hair loss up to post-pregnancy hormones, but if I am still losing this much in a couple months (if there’s anything left to lose by then) I’m going to talk to my doc. I guess the time between 3-4 months PP results in the most hair loss. Until then I will gulp back the tears as I clear out my tub drain.

*This post was interrupted by a whiny baby who apparently needed a burp, because she spit up all over herself and her bouncy chair. Cleanup of both baby and chair was followed by an awesome Abby nap  in the glider. Messy dining room and dirty dishes can wait when Abby falls asleep on Momma. Especially on her last day before going…back…to…work…..WAH!

Sometimes someone else says exactly what you feel.

Posted 30 Jan 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category baby business, motherhood

This is one of those moments.

Katherine Center wrote/created a piece for a Mom-convention (no, really) and it is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. Two minutes and forty-one seconds of how I feel as a mother.

Watch it here: defining a movement.

Oh dear.

Posted 29 Jan 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category baby business, motherhood

Uhm, so I had no idea hair loss was a side effect of the Mirena IUD.

I didn’t know until I read one of my favorite bloggers most recent posts.

And then I found this site.

Pardon my french but I am FREAKING THE FUCK OUT.

This HAS to be from the IUD. I am honestly pulling a golfball size clump of hair out of the drain every day. My hair is one of the few things I really REALLY like about myself and now it’s going away.

Points to be made:

  • This thing was expensive to have placed and I’ve only had it for 2 months. Should I give it more time? Probably. That’s more than likely what my midwife would say.
  • Let’s say I get it pulled. Yaz/Yazmin is out – caused depression. NFP/Charting/condoms are a pain in the rear and SCARE THE BEJEEZUS out of me. What then? A different pill? I suppose.

Hokay, that’s all for now. I just had to post this because omgwhatamIgoingtodo?!?!

Someone have the phone number for Hair Club for Men?

Posted 28 Jan 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category motherhood, not so much

No, seriously.

I cannot even believe how much hair I am losing. I read that this would happen. I also read that my hair would get thicker with pregnancy. IT DIDN’T.

I really shouldn’t complain, my hair has always been pretty thick. I would always lose a bit every day in the shower, but I’m pulling out handfuls now. There are enough tresses in my drain catch to give Barbie a hair transplant. But what can I do? A big fat NOTHING.

Thankfully, even though showering feels like a scene in a horror movie, I’m not really noticing my hair being thinner. Yet. (And by typing said words, I probably just cursed myself.)

In other news, I had my abdomen ultrasound-ed yesterday. It was really weird. I mean, I was watching the tech show me all my organs on the screen and kept thinking that it was only like, 10 months ago that I saw my little girl on the screen for the first time.  I was waiting for him to find my liver and say “and there’s the baby!” or something like that. ::shudder:: If I heard those words again so soon…gah. Speaking of horror movies…

Anyway – no word yet from the doctor. If I was a betting lady (which I am) I would say there were no stones in that ultrasound. Just a big ol’ empty gallbladder. I wish the doc would just call me so I can find out.

Four more days until I go back to work…

3 months.

Posted 28 Jan 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category Abigail, motherhood, paparazzi
My sweet, spitty baby.
You’re three months old today. We celebrated by going to Babies R Us and buying you a few new toys, and by redoing my blog while you helped by sleeping. It was a fun day for sure.
You’ve already grown out of half of your 3 month sleepers, and have officially graduated to the level 2 nipples offered by Dr. Brown. (Pretty awesome, huh?)
I’m sad to say that the three month anniversary of your birth also means that momma’s going back to work. Grandpa Mike had a couple trial Abbycare days in preparation the past few days. While I fully trust both him and Grandma Chris, I will more than likely cry every day that I leave you. In fact, today you cried while we were at the store, simply because you couldn’t see me. And I nearly cried when I realized what that meant.
So, another month under the belt. Another month wiser, for both of us.
Love you much,
Momma.