I’m writing this post from my hospital bed, hoping for word that I’ll be sent home soon…like this afternoon, maybe.

Long story short –

Yesterday I went to my appointment and received my weekly internal…and for the first time – was dilated. The MW I saw figured me to be a “stretchy 4cm” and off to Labor & Delivery I went.

They strapped me to a monitor and IV and I had to stay the night. The hubs was with me the whole time…even went home to get the laptop, camera (just in case) and a few other items.And slept in the poorest excuse for a bed I’ve ever seen. (Not that mine was any better!)

I was rechecked this morning. It was the most PAINFUL internal I’ve ever had (did he have the Freddy Krueger glove on or something?) but he determined I’m really more like 3cm, but no change really since the night before.

John the midwife seems to think that I should be able to go home this afternoon (although original plan was another night of observations). I told him that in all honesty, I felt no different prior to this appointment…and I had been SUPER active this past week, what with the hubs being laid up and all. He knows that I know my body, and when the contractions start being more real and less like they have been the past nearly 20 weeks. We live a mere 10 minutes from the hospital, so if labor truly begins, we’re not that far away.

I am so glad I do not have an outside baby yet. I never lost my shit last night, but while sitting in the tub trying to relax while the hubs was getting some things from home…I suddenly felt like a 15 year old – wondering how I thought I was ready for this, that this couldn’t be happening…what had I gotten myself into. But I pulled myself together and reminded myself that this wasn’t happening yet. And it isn’t…THANK GOD.

Mental note. PACK EFFING HOSPITAL BAG.