Progress. Sort of.

Posted 01 Sep 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category marriage, motherhood, TheRapists

I haven’t really talked much about my escapades with therapy. It seems really personal, but at the same time I like being able to tell people that things DO get better. So I have to talk about it in some context.

There are a lot of things I talk about in therapy that I won’t talk about here though. Personal stuff is just that. PERSONAL. And it will more than likely stay that way.

I will say this: I don’t feel depressed anymore. I haven’t for a while. I don’t know if it’s because I have so much going on that I don’t really have time to dwell on things anymore, or if I’ve “gotten over” or worked through the issues I had that were depressing me, or if I’m just…you know…better.

However, my therapist was right when she said I have anxiety issues. I have had no less than 10 panic attacks in the past month, some of a lesser degree than others, triggered sometimes by things I do not understand. Three out of seven days a week I get “anxiety stomach” and try REALLY hard to make it go away. Usually it just has to on it’s own. She says I’m so maxed out with my anxiety that it really doesn’t take much to send me into an attack. And that is SO true.

Most recently, I had my dear friend (who is like, WEEKS away from having a baby) over for dinner. I didn’t see it coming, but just seeing her so pregnant made my heart race. Then we were on the couch talking labor and baby stuff…enter full blown anxiety attack. (Even recounting the situation right now is making me light headed.) I mentioned this to my therapist. By “mentioned,” I mean I got loud and talked fast and pretty much needed a paper bag to calm down. Next session (which won’t be for a couple of weeks) we’re going to talk about EVERYTHING. My whole pregnancy and labor will be discussed. And…I’m glad. I know that I need to work through my anxiety surrounding it so that when/if we want to have another baby I won’t have to be committed. The thought of having to talk about it all is making my heartrate go up.

::deep breaths::

So that’s where I stand. I’m better in some respects, and maybe worse in others. But I’m dealing. And I’m working on it. And so far, without medication. I will say I kind of wish I could be on something so I could avoid the anxiety stomach I get, but being without medication is also nice.

Stay tuned.

Gratuitous product gushing.

Posted 30 Aug 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category baby business, RAD

So, while I was in the New York with my pal Morgan of the818.com, I noticed her daughter using a snack cup that seemed like an invention from the GODS. Of course, as soon as I got home and got to Target (which, let’s be honest was about 20 minutes after I got home) I bought one for Abby. How I got along without it for so long baffles the mind.

Munchkin’s Snack Catcher. It’s like, $4 for the greatest thing you’ll ever get your kid. It’s lid allows their tiny hands to reach in and get out their snacks, but also keeps all that shizz in there so it’s not all over your house. Granted, when your daughter has a love affair with Cheerios….little round cheerios…some are bound to escape. But it’s still SO EFFING WORTH IT.

Now, as a disclaimer I was not paid to say this or did I get any compensation. Just one mom gushing to whoever wants to listen that this thing is awesome.

That is all.

In the backyard.

Posted 27 Aug 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category Abigail, paparazzi

10 months.

Posted 27 Aug 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category Abigail, baby business, motherhood, paparazzi

Our little Abigail is 10 months old today. TEN MONTHS.  That means in two measly months she’ll be 12 months, aka ONE YEAR OLD. I’ve actually begun planning her birthday party and it kinda makes me want to cry every time I start designing her invitations.

I’ve decided she will most likely be walking or trying really hard to walk by her birthday. She has already crawled around our entire house which is nothing short of mind blowing every time she does it. She gives kisses, high fives, claps like a champ and feeds herself like a pro.

Seeing her grow is just awesome.

When you’re planning on having a baby, one really focuses on just THE BABY part of it. I never really thought about how cool it would be to watch her grow into a toddler and eventually a teenager and then adult. Like, the thought crosses my mind, and then she’ll actually hit one of those little milestones and it hits me like a wrecking ball. SHE IS GROWING UP. ALREADY. YOU’D BETTA RECOGNIZE, MOMMA.

An oldie, but a goodie.

Posted 25 Aug 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category Abigail, baby business, paparazzi

This is a video from about 3 weeks ago when Abbers first began her crawling escapades.

Yes, the hubs is luring her with a crumpled up paper towel. You have NO IDEA how much she loves paper towels. Tearing them apart gives her great pleasure. We’re working our way up to phone books.

Also, the noises she makes at 0:43 make me smile. And you should stick with it till the end. BEST ENDING EVAR.

Please to enjoy!

Abbers and her first attempts at crawling. from jenna bee on Vimeo.