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Progress. Sort of.

Posted 01 Sep 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category marriage, motherhood, TheRapists

I haven’t really talked much about my escapades with therapy. It seems really personal, but at the same time I like being able to tell people that things DO get better. So I have to talk about it in some context.

There are a lot of things I talk about in therapy that I won’t talk about here though. Personal stuff is just that. PERSONAL. And it will more than likely stay that way.

I will say this: I don’t feel depressed anymore. I haven’t for a while. I don’t know if it’s because I have so much going on that I don’t really have time to dwell on things anymore, or if I’ve “gotten over” or worked through the issues I had that were depressing me, or if I’m just…you know…better.

However, my therapist was right when she said I have anxiety issues. I have had no less than 10 panic attacks in the past month, some of a lesser degree than others, triggered sometimes by things I do not understand. Three out of seven days a week I get “anxiety stomach” and try REALLY hard to make it go away. Usually it just has to on it’s own. She says I’m so maxed out with my anxiety that it really doesn’t take much to send me into an attack. And that is SO true.

Most recently, I had my dear friend (who is like, WEEKS away from having a baby) over for dinner. I didn’t see it coming, but just seeing her so pregnant made my heart race. Then we were on the couch talking labor and baby stuff…enter full blown anxiety attack. (Even recounting the situation right now is making me light headed.) I mentioned this to my therapist. By “mentioned,” I mean I got loud and talked fast and pretty much needed a paper bag to calm down. Next session (which won’t be for a couple of weeks) we’re going to talk about EVERYTHING. My whole pregnancy and labor will be discussed. And…I’m glad. I know that I need to work through my anxiety surrounding it so that when/if we want to have another baby I won’t have to be committed. The thought of having to talk about it all is making my heartrate go up.

::deep breaths::

So that’s where I stand. I’m better in some respects, and maybe worse in others. But I’m dealing. And I’m working on it. And so far, without medication. I will say I kind of wish I could be on something so I could avoid the anxiety stomach I get, but being without medication is also nice.

Stay tuned.

3 years.

Posted 11 Aug 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category marriage

Happy Anniversary to you, dear hubby.

jbd;isugef;gr!

Posted 15 Jul 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category baby business, marriage, motherhood

Yep, I just used the standard “OMFGIAMSOBUSY!” keyboard move to indicate that, YES. I AM VERY BUSY.

I had a bachelorette party last weekend, one this weekend and a baby shower as well; work is busier than I’ve been in years and we can’t forget I HAVE A NEARLY 9 MONTH OLD ON MY HANDS.

I knew this month was going to fly by, I just didn’t think it would go by THIS fast.

So here’s one of those awesome “recap” posts that always make me roll my eyes but OMG YOU GUYS. I have no time. Could someone loan me a day? I really just need one day. Preferably between Saturday and Sunday. We’ll call it Satunday. Wait. That’s too close to Satanday. How about Sunturday? Sure. We’ll go with that.

  • Abbers’  right front tooth is making it’s way in as we speak. I always try to take pictures but every time she sees me focusing in on them, she purses up her lips and pretty much gives me the “back off beeetch” eyes. So you’ll have to wait, dear internets, to see those toofies for yourselves.
  • It was roughly the surface of the sun here yesterday in good ol’ Minneaps. I am so thankful we have central air. Most houses in our hood do not. Although, there is something comforting about remembering lying in bed as a kid, sweating and praying the box fan in the window would magically turn into an AC. Abby will probably never know what it’s like to not have AC until she moves into her first apartment. (Okay. I just typed that and started crying. Thanks PMS!)
  • I had my consultation at Uptown Tattoo for my latest and greatest. I’m not going to talk about it here, you’ll just have to wait until September when I have it done. Needless to say I AM STOKED. I also have an appointment in August (after BlogHer) to get my foot touched up, which will hurt more than birthing babies.
  • I also finally made an appointment with a lady to talk about The Funk. I HAVE been feeling better lately, but I still get blue and have my moments where I think “I am not handling this well.” I have my first appointment on Monday. I’m both excited and scared shitless to talk to a woman I don’t know about the horrible thoughts that have run through my head.
  • I owe my bestie about 3,592 emails. She also owes me a blog post. :) I’ll start emailing, you start writing!

And…that’s that. Sorry all you’re getting lately is bulleted lists. Someday when I’m not having to block time on my calendar to take a piss, you’ll get a real solid post. Until then? UL tags all the way! (Yep. I code-monkeyed all over that shiz.)

HUMPDAY.

Posted 07 Jul 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category Abigail, blog bidnass, marriage, motherhood, other people are awesome

Who decided to call Wednesday “Humpday?” It makes me feel dirty. And not in a good way.

Anyway, holy crap it’s summer! I mean, it has been summer, but suddenly I’m in the thick of not having a free weekend until the end of August and I’m already feeling like it’s over. I love and hate this all at once.

So, here’s a (not so) quick recap of what the eff I’m up to lately.

  • Designing my “business cards” for BlogHer in NYC. You know what? SCRATCH THAT. Obvs they’re not business cards, because if this was my business I’d be as happy as a little girl. Since it’s not, let’s call them what they are. CALLING CARDS. Call me a call-girl. Did I say “call” enough yet? Call. (call.)
  • Speaking of BlogHer, the hubs and I just purchased our plane tickets for NYC! So that means I’ll actually be there. OMG. SO EXCITED. Also? I just got Aunt Becky’s phone number. Get ready for drunk texts about how awesome you are in the next month, Ms. Becky. You’ve been warned.
  • Prepping myself for insanity. I have two bachelorette parties, a baby shower and a weekend in the northwoods coming up in the next 3 weeks. And then New York. And then a wedding. I have a lot of dress shopping to do.
  • Abbers has two new toofies on the top. Last night I dreamed she got all her teeth at once. In the same dream I was also completely hysterical. I WONDER WHY.  Abby’s thisclose to crawling as well. And seemingly thisclose to standing and walking. She’d apparently like to do them all at once, thankyouverymuch. We’ll see which one she masters first.
  • I also talked to John the Midwife about The Funk. It’s been getting better lately, but now The Funk is kind of morphing into The Anxiety and that is equally as shitty. Especially since I have to get on a plane in a matter of weeks. Needless to say, he recommended I talk to someone, and is calling me in a week to make sure I’ve made an appointment to do so. Have I mentioned I love John? Because I do. I’ll be making my appointment…soon.

So…I think that’s about all I can wrap up for now. It’s a busy time, summers in the Midwest. We only get so many days to be outside and soak up as much vitamin D as we can before we’re all buried in snow and pissing & moaning about living here.

Intelligent conversation.

Posted 23 Jun 2010 — by Mrs. Jenna
Category marriage, The Hubs

A back and forth between the hubs and I on Sunday:

Me: Was I having the conversation with you about Back to the Future the other day?

Him: No.

Me: “The Future” was supposed to be in 2015 in that movie. So much for hovercars and skateboards, eh?

Him: (laughs) Yeah, I guess so. It’s stupid though. They should have hoverboards by now.

Me: You’d think.

Him: We used to think when the movie came out that they really did exist and they were just keeping them secret. I mean, why don’t they really have hoverboards? It can’t be that hard.

Me: Because they’d need to harness jet propulsion on a really small scale and that’s probably really hard.

(Sidenote: Am I not the biggest nerd in the world? Even typing out what I said makes me feel like I should tape a “Kick Me” sign to my own back.)

Him: They should get the world’s top scientists on this. Get them off the oil spill and put them on building hoverboards.

Me: They’d probably build a hoverboard faster than they can figure out how to stop the oil spill.

Him: True dat.